Scared? Maybe I Am.

Yeah, i know anyone who reads this is probably sick of me right now, but i don’t know what else to do, i don’t talk to many people. I’m scared, scared i’ll annoy her too much, i know she says she’ll never leave, but i’m always scared, to go back to being alone is terrifying, almost as terrifying as losing her love. I love her so much but i’m afraid to say anything, sometimes i feel like if i say i love her it’ll annoy her, which i think it sometimes does, i’m afraid to say anything atall but i never want to stop talking to her, i wish she’d just talk with me about it so we can sort it out, so i can stop saying things wrong. I know it’s my fault but i still want to fix it, i just don’t know how as i don’t know exactly what it is i’m doing. Maybe when i see you again things’ll work themselves out and i can make you happy again instead of failing you ❤
I love you Charlotte, i always will and that is a fact that wouldn’t change for anything, i’d give up everything to be with you if i had to ❤

I’m sorry for everytime i mess up but i’m really trying, i know it doesn’t seem like it but i am, i try to find something you like talking about, but it’s hard, i’ve never been good with conversation or relationships, you’ll have to help me, please ❤

I love you ❤ xxxx I want to be yours forever ❤ xxxx

 

EDIT: Ahah, i’m just being silly aren’t i? I know i won’t lose her, i won’t let it happen, i’ll keep trying 🙂 I think that this much time apart is just dragging things on. I’m sure when i see you again, maybe next weekend? that things’ll go back to how they were before, i love you so much sweetie ❤